I constantly find myself being stuck in indecision.
Do I want an apple or a banana?
Is my favorite color yellow or blue?
Or green?
Or purple?
Or orange?
Most of these are seemingly unimportant decisions, yes. But at times it drives me nuts that I just can't decide! I envy others who walk into a store, get exactly what they want, pay, and leave happy. While I walk in, mozy around, look at every option, make inferences and calculations on everything. Then I walk around the store again. Possibly narrow down a few options. Then do this process over again till I finally make a decision. Which sometimes after the decision is made I wish I would have chosen something else.
It drives me NUTS.
I decided I wanted to be more decisive. When I was thinking of exactly how I was going to do this, I started thinking about why I was like this in the first place. What is it that makes it so hard to choose just one thing? Why do I struggle to pick my very favorite? When I'm asked what my favorite color is, why do I say it's Rainbow?
Whenever I see a Rainbow, I think of how great it is to see all the colors together. Each a different shade, a different hue, a different feeling to it. All combined together to create something so mystical and stunning. I love rainbows for that very reason. Individually, each color is great and has a lot to offer, but when they are all put together, it creates something breath taking.
I think this is why I am so indecisive. I love diversity. I love seeing 'colors' of people when I walk around campus. I love eating a colorful plate of food. I love my blue sweatshirt and my white jacket.
I try and see the best in everything, and it gets the best of me sometimes. How can I choose an apple over a banana? Apples are crisp and crunchy and taste like fall. Bananas are soft and flavorful, you can eat it in thirds. Both are great in their own way. I love both!
The key to all this, is that I need to take into consideration that there "is a time and place for everything" Although I do love both, and they are both great in their own way, there is a time to eat an apple and there is a time to eat a banana, and there is also a time to eat both of them together! That's just how our world is meant to be. Sometimes it's meant to be warm and sunny, with green trees, bright blue skies, and a yellow sun taking up the sun. At times it's meant to be dark and cloudy, everything brown and gray. If we didn't have times where you we experienced each thing individually, there would be no appreciation for the masterpiece. No appreciation for that majestic time that all the colors are meant to be up in sky together, creating the masterpiece. The Rainbow.
P.S. I might expound on this topic. I have a lot to say. But for right now, I have to get to class! :)
