It's Decided.

These past few weeks I have had a ton on my mind. I never knew one brain could hold so much at once. From school, to running, to wedding plans, to family, to friends, there are a ton of new things that are going on in my life right now. I am one that is all for change. But lately, I've had a hard time dealing with all the new changes that are taking place. Out of nowhere everything will just hit me. I feel so overwhelmed. I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything. I have so much to do. I feel like I do a little here, and a little there, but nothing ever gets done infull effort. It really is frustrating. Especially cause I know I can handle everything, but I get a little soft and let doubt consume me, and then it doesn't happen. But today that is all going to change.

I AM DONE BEING LAME.

It is decided. I am determined.

Here is the Decision:

Eating so healthy for 2 months. This means no junk food. I LOVE eating healthy. I have been so lax about it lately though. I am done with that. I want to be able to feel good every night when I go to bed about how I treated my body.

Going to do well in school. This means no more wasted time. When I am at school, I am at school. I'm going to focus and just sit down in the burb and do work! I'm going to ask more questions, and pay attention to details so i don't get marked down for stupid mistakes. (which is why I get docked on assignments 99% of the time)

Running is going to be done with full effort. Instead of skipping the training room because I don't feel like it, i'm going to get in there. I'm going to listen to my body, but at the same time, take on the pain. I know I can be fast.

Wedding stuff. My wonderful fiance is helping me out a ton with this. Everyone is actually. I need to just take it one step at a time. It'll all work out. And if it doesn't, that's okay. I just want to marry the kid. Everything after that will just be cherries on top :)

I am going to be a serious effort into just focusing more. When I'm studying, I'm going to study. When I run, i'm going to run. When i'm with Nate, I'm going to be with Nate. When i'm relaxing, I'm going to relax.

It's time to put up those blinders and just take one thing at a time.

Moderation in all things!

IT IS DECIDED :)