It's Decided.

These past few weeks I have had a ton on my mind. I never knew one brain could hold so much at once. From school, to running, to wedding plans, to family, to friends, there are a ton of new things that are going on in my life right now. I am one that is all for change. But lately, I've had a hard time dealing with all the new changes that are taking place. Out of nowhere everything will just hit me. I feel so overwhelmed. I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything. I have so much to do. I feel like I do a little here, and a little there, but nothing ever gets done infull effort. It really is frustrating. Especially cause I know I can handle everything, but I get a little soft and let doubt consume me, and then it doesn't happen. But today that is all going to change.

I AM DONE BEING LAME.

It is decided. I am determined.

Here is the Decision:

Eating so healthy for 2 months. This means no junk food. I LOVE eating healthy. I have been so lax about it lately though. I am done with that. I want to be able to feel good every night when I go to bed about how I treated my body.

Going to do well in school. This means no more wasted time. When I am at school, I am at school. I'm going to focus and just sit down in the burb and do work! I'm going to ask more questions, and pay attention to details so i don't get marked down for stupid mistakes. (which is why I get docked on assignments 99% of the time)

Running is going to be done with full effort. Instead of skipping the training room because I don't feel like it, i'm going to get in there. I'm going to listen to my body, but at the same time, take on the pain. I know I can be fast.

Wedding stuff. My wonderful fiance is helping me out a ton with this. Everyone is actually. I need to just take it one step at a time. It'll all work out. And if it doesn't, that's okay. I just want to marry the kid. Everything after that will just be cherries on top :)

I am going to be a serious effort into just focusing more. When I'm studying, I'm going to study. When I run, i'm going to run. When i'm with Nate, I'm going to be with Nate. When i'm relaxing, I'm going to relax.

It's time to put up those blinders and just take one thing at a time.

Moderation in all things!

IT IS DECIDED :)

3 More Months.

3 more months to go before I being my new life with my best friend, Nathan Anthony Houle.

I. AM. EXCITED.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rainbows.

I constantly find myself being stuck in indecision.

Do I want an apple or a banana?

Is my favorite color yellow or blue?

Or green?

Or purple?

Or orange?

Most of these are seemingly unimportant decisions, yes. But at times it drives me nuts that I just can't decide! I envy others who walk into a store, get exactly what they want, pay, and leave happy. While I walk in, mozy around, look at every option, make inferences and calculations on everything. Then I walk around the store again. Possibly narrow down a few options. Then do this process over again till I finally make a decision. Which sometimes after the decision is made I wish I would have chosen something else.

It drives me NUTS.

I decided I wanted to be more decisive. When I was thinking of exactly how I was going to do this, I started thinking about why I was like this in the first place. What is it that makes it so hard to choose just one thing? Why do I struggle to pick my very favorite? When I'm asked what my favorite color is, why do I say it's Rainbow?

Whenever I see a Rainbow, I think of how great it is to see all the colors together. Each a different shade, a different hue, a different feeling to it. All combined together to create something so mystical and stunning. I love rainbows for that very reason. Individually, each color is great and has a lot to offer, but when they are all put together, it creates something breath taking.

I think this is why I am so indecisive. I love diversity. I love seeing 'colors' of people when I walk around campus. I love eating a colorful plate of food. I love my blue sweatshirt and my white jacket.

I try and see the best in everything, and it gets the best of me sometimes. How can I choose an apple over a banana? Apples are crisp and crunchy and taste like fall. Bananas are soft and flavorful, you can eat it in thirds. Both are great in their own way. I love both!

The key to all this, is that I need to take into consideration that there "is a time and place for everything" Although I do love both, and they are both great in their own way, there is a time to eat an apple and there is a time to eat a banana, and there is also a time to eat both of them together! That's just how our world is meant to be. Sometimes it's meant to be warm and sunny, with green trees, bright blue skies, and a yellow sun taking up the sun. At times it's meant to be dark and cloudy, everything brown and gray. If we didn't have times where you we experienced each thing individually, there would be no appreciation for the masterpiece. No appreciation for that majestic time that all the colors are meant to be up in sky together, creating the masterpiece. The Rainbow.

P.S. I might expound on this topic. I have a lot to say. But for right now, I have to get to class! :)

Things to Smile about :)

This past month has been... well a different to say the least. It's had some of the best times, and worst times. But today, I just feel so happy and content. I was walking home from trax earlier and just started smiling. For no reason other than I felt happy! Amidst my trying times lately, I felt like I was forcing myself to smile and be happy. I finally feel like I've gotten over that hump though :) As I continued my walk home (with a smile on my face) I started thinking of all the great things in my life. A (very few) reasons why I smile.

-My amazing crazy family

- The gospel

- The Atonement

- Forgiveness

- A boy named Nate

- My team. I love those girls.

- Little ones

- Girl night with a boy

- Hanging out with my big brother again

- Spilled Sobes

- Learning the dance to "Down"

- Being a Bald old Man

- Getting letters in the mail. the real mail... not e-mail :)

- Roommates

- Doing fall-esk things

- Not stressing

- Sister being a State Champion

- Loving and Being loved :)

- Hugs from my little brother

- DPLP

- Being able to call my girls even when we're miles apart and still knowing they are there for me.

- Candy Corn. It's just cute.

- Chancho! I really wanna hug that kid.

- Silly puppies that whine to go running.

- Finally letting my body relax. And not freaking about it.

- Knowing that no matter what happens, you can always get back and go further.

- Eating an apple

- Laying in my baby sister's bed and having her tell me about her day

- Hearing people laugh

- Trax. oh trax

- Nature. beeeeeeeeautiful!

- Smiles. Smiles make me smile!

As a popular song says, "I've gotta feeling, that tonight is gonna be a good night." I know that tonight, and every night and day are going to be good days. I just know it :)

Keep moving forward, and remember to, smile :)

Sprinter.

I'm going to become a sprinter. I decided I don't like this distance business.

that is all.

;)

Sitting at work.

Where to start, where to start. I'm not sure that I'll really get into this blogging business. Though I do tend to have a lot on my mind, all the time. Maybe this will be a good outlet.

Now, on to an actual and (mostly) factual post...

My life has been a whole crazy mess lately. Minus the mess. It's just been crazy! The other day my roommate, Krychelle, and I were talking about what we were doing last year around general conference time and how our lives both have changed so dramatically! Last year at this time I had been on my own for the first time for a little over a month. I was living in Phoenix, AZ with 5 other girls, going to a Junior College and I was a Puma (Go Mas!). I was experencing total independence for the first time. Running a ton of miles. And I was loving it. I missed my family a lot, but I was loving doing my own thing. I never thought I would come back to Utah... And look at me now. I am now a Sophomore in college. I live in Salt Lake City, UT with 2 other girls, going to University of Utah, and I am a Ute (Go Utes!). Still running lots of miles. See my family almost every week. I am so glad that I am back in Utah. Still loving it.

It's funny how things work out sometimes. Towards the end of the spring semester down in Arizona and into the Summer, I kept having the feeling that I just wasn't suppose to go back to Paradise Valley Community College. I love my coach and teammates down there, and REALLY didn't want to leave them. But at the same time, I missed my family so much. So so much. You know how 'they' say you get less homesick as time goes on? Not so much for me. I was the opposite. The more I didn't get to see them, the more and more I missed them. For more reasons than that, I just didn't want to be far away anymore. Though as the summer started to wind down, I didn't think I had any other options other than going back to PV. I wasn't completely bummed, but I just wasn't excited about it. Which is weird for me.

Then one night, I was laying looking at the stars with my girls, and we started talking about my situation, and my dear Lacey girl reminded me that U of U was still an option for me. I hadn't forgetten about it, but I just had put it in the back of my mind. When it was brought to my attention, something inside me just clicked. I knew I wanted to be a Ute! Once the decision was made, one thing after another just fell into place. It was such a blessing!

That's where I am today. Living in Willy, having lots of fun with K.L.A.K, getting to know a ton of different and cool people, Loving running with my new team, loving getting to see my family. This past year has been one of the craziest ever. So much good, some bad. There have been ups and downs. But like I decided a couple days ago, I'm just happy I'm on the roller coaster and not on the ground looking at it go round and round. It's much more fun from way up here :)

Blog?

Never thought I would get one of these things. We'll see how it goes :)